We Cannot Do It Alone

Love One Another being the key one another. For we cannot do any of the others without it. In fact in John 13:34-35 Jesus last minutes with His disciples and the only time that Jesus commands His disciples to do something is here and that commandment is to Love One Another. Love One Another appears in the in the New Testament 10 times. Are we seeking the highest good for our brothers, sisters and others?

The second most used one another is greet one another with a holy kiss. This weeks sermon touched me the most when our Pastor stated that meeting with others in worship is NOT about you. It is about you worshiping God. Giving Him all glory and honor and praise. However it does not stop there, you are to meet with your church family THEY are depending on you.

We cannot complete any of these one anothers alone! If we are not in community with others we cannot put these one anothers in practice or in good use.

I am an introvert. I am energized by being alone and there are times that my energy can be drained by being around other people. Up until this summer I have spent most of my best times by myself. Up until this summer I used my depression as a crutch, secluded myself from others and enjoyed energizing myself. Some days I succeeded very well, however most days I failed. I would fail myself to a dark seclusion that did not allow me out of bed some days.

This came to a screeching halt one evening this summer when I had a massive anxiety attack that put me in the hospital. I never saw that my anxiety and worry was a medical issue. My doctors and I always focused on my depression which was caused by an imbalance of hormones that my brain was/ was not producing. My anxiety attack was a blessing in disguise. My doctors and I are now focused on the right things for the right treatment. I have been on the right track for over 3 months now and I must say that I feel like I am a completely different person than I ever have been.

Unexplainable things have been in my mind since I can remember. Over the last few months those things are gone. Things that would trigger uncontrollable emotions of anger, sadness, abandonment, etc… Things that would trigger me to hold onto things so tightly I could not hold onto anything else. I could not allow anyone else into my life. I tried. I knew that I needed to let others in, I knew that I needed to break these walls that I have built up so high that I believed that were protecting me. Without my knowledge I was pushing all of them away.. including the relationships with my family and my friends that I was trying so hard to hold onto. I was holding on so tightly I was not allowing them to breathe and leaving me was the only way out from my grip. All have not left me behind however my relationships with others have been very mild and surfaced. I allowed very few behind my walls.